I caught him in 3 lies in the past month about stupid things he shouldn't even be lying to me about. It makes me wonder what else is going on. A couple of other things happened that I am not too comfortable blogging about just yet. Every time I think of them I get completely sick to my stomach and wind up mad again. I am so tired of being angry and hurt.
Things are not the same. I don't feel the same way about him as I did a month ago. He's really trying this time and I am way too skeptical to fall for it right away. I may be Finally Single again here pretty soon. Then maybe I can actually blog about something entertaining. All my fun energy has gone to keeping me from going crazy. It's not working all that great. Why do boys have to be so fucked up?
I found this next to the computer:
1. Validate your feelings2. Give you reasons to trust me
- NO LYING!
- Be there when you need me
3. Be your friend
Your Best Friend!!!
4. No talking down to by addressing you differently and taking a much sweeter tone
5. Think of your point of view (naturally) Auto-matically
posted by Ev at 1:55 PM
6 Comments:
hmmmm I'm trying to be supportive.
"you go Girl"
heh... I'm trying
Boys are genetically programmed to lie, even about stupid shit not worth lying about. It only gets more complicated when we really care about a girl and start to imagine what she would think about the shit we're lying about. Unfortunately, we're no better at imagining what she would think than we are at lying and shouldn't even attempt it, because we're always wrong and always get caught, as you've so beautifully illustrated.
this isn't sounding so great, and I'm sorry it's not perfect perfect perfect....why can't it be? Hope it turns around---but not knowing the other stomach-sick-making stuff, maybe that's a pipe dream :( Hang in there.
When you do this... or when you go through this.
I sort of "weep a little", because it seems obvious how it's tearing you up.... Inside.
It's that inner turmoil that is the worst part.
You going to start blogging again?
how did i miss all of this? all resolved now?
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